Awaiting a Hug from You, My Brother

I am bloody happy today...I just saw the movie New York, John Abraham, Neil Nithin, Katrina Kaif, Irfan Khan, ya its the latest bollywood flick. Yes its good movie, but i dont think thats the reason for my happiness. But it is that its a bollywood movie...something that reminds me of Hyderabad life..It was Rocking...the movies, the late night rides, long walks, the Ice candys from the night hawkers by the lake, the booze all those good memories. I am not bothered if people say i am living in the ghost of yester years, those were good times.

I was bubbling with those good memories that i called few of my friends directly from my cell, something which i dont do for financial reasons, any ways one of them was at a concert, which i would have also attended had i been there. They are my dear fiends. Hey mind you all those good friends i have are straight friends, hey gays dont mind but i did not find anyone who became one of my dear friends. Of course there is one guy who stands out in gay friends circle he stands out as my love. No i am not here to talk about him.

I just want to remind people that when you choose friends you just choose them, you dont look at their sexuality or religion or caste or creed or even gender, thats is whats called friendship. Earlier i was reading post by Rainbow Rays & CSB, both talking about Homophobia. The hot topic of media now a days is the homosexuality. I am happy with it, as as someone said, be it good or bad publicity is publicity and i'd like to rephrase it as awareness.

And few words to all these self imposed clergies and philosophers of religion and culture. Religion, culture fait anr terms created by man kind to bring people together in love. But not to differentiate people based on few idelogies. I am not a very learned person, but i dont think that in any of the religions homosexuality is opposed, but rather its brushed aside. A silent endurance that there are such people in society. So as long as we kept quiet it was ok, but now when we have raised our voice against discrimination its a huge hulla bulla.

Just because i am gay does not mean that i leave my religion. I do go to church, i do pray, actually i adore Mother Mary, and pray seeking her indulgence in life. And i am sure that will continue throughout my life but it dosent change the fact that i am gay. And if you are talking about culture, i better ask you to go and refer our history books before talking. Homosexuality is mentioned in every culture's book. And it is mentioned neither as good or bad, if our ancestors were wise to not to term it good or evil why cant the modern society leave it as it is and let us live we are your brothers and sisters still.

I am not so sure its the modern society but its the elderly who is having problems, i dont mean to be rude but you made your choices in your life time allow us to make our oumn choices.

Being Gay is not a crime, its not against any religion or culture, its just way of life. All are welcome to be part of it. we dont hate you but even we are part of the society Accept Us

Smile & Love

Last time i had said that when ever i feel like writing i dont find the system, so to splve the problem i have started making down few hints in my mobile..lets see how well i am able to develop it.

I am reading a novel, 'The Bear and The Eagle", while reading i came across section where a character is described as glowing, radiating with happiness due to something special happening in her privaate life.. Why do you think, this happens? Dit it ever happen to you?. Yes thats my anaswer.

When there are special and private happening s in your life your face flows, you happiness is reflected on your face. You tend to blush on each and every renderance of the word regarding the mysterious. And you try to act as ifis happening but your face gives you away....may be we can term this share of life as love.

To me love is when people remove lust and replace it with care, tenderness, admiration, oneness..hey untill now i am not able to find the right word for the feeling. Its been more than a year since i was in that situation, but still i dont know how to describe it. Hey why am i reminded of this now.....i dont know, ya i get it, there are a lot of "I dont knows in my life".....may be thats whats called life.; a quest to find the answers to all i dont knows.

But i think i know the reason for this sudden flush of thoughts and encounters, after coming to this country i have not met anyone, and also i was checking out old snaps, beautiful times of life (untill now, dont get me that i am old), really i do miss my life in Hyderabad..good times.

Hey everyone needs love, a hug, a tap on the back, may be these are trival things but these simple actions can creat wonders...even in offices, a simple smile to your subordinates is more than enough to make them feel relaxed and confident to approach you when required....smile is stress buster, smile a detector of happiness and above all love. NO let me rephrase it, if you are blushing at someone's name or for even simple things that reminds you of him then definitely you are in love. Its a special tinkle in you heart. I guess its feeling when you say you are on top of the world, bloody hell its exiting. To everyone who reading this fall in love once, even there might be a painful break up, but still ill say fall in love be in love.