He is gone and it’s like I don’t have anything to write. Hey was my blog every time about my encounters and the continuing parts. Hmm I need to check it out, but something in my heart keeps telling me it’s been, gay and gay. Never had I realised most of what I write was about my love life.
Anyways, coming back. Yes people I do agree its time (age) for me to get married, but it’s becoming too much now a days. Ok I can understand family pressurising, but friends and colleagues, come on guys give me a break. Where ever I turn its talk of me getting settled.
Yesterday I was just making fun of my cousin (we both are just 20 days apart by birth) he has posted a new profile photo in orkut, and the moment I saw that what came to my mind was its time for him to get married. And me being me, scribbled the same, reply came the very next hour. Asking me to let him live (apparently we all bachelors do feel that marriage is equivalent of death....lol). He is at home town so he was telling (advising) me not to be in home for 2 months or so. As then it’s going to be big trouble for both of us. As we have been avoiding the marriage scene by pointing at each other. Thankfully I am going to be home only for the month, and I am on schedule, the time I will be spending at home is going to be very much less. This marriage thing has made us refuges in our own home.
Few days back one of my friend (gay), was asking me, why am I not getting settled (he has got a partner). He was even wondering if the first love that I had at college turned out to be bitter that I lost faith in love/relationship. No no what I had in college was not love, it was just a fling, or should I say I liked having sex with him (the routine sexual feed available). As for love and relationships, Hell No. I do still believe in love and relationship. I am yearning to be with One Man only, but yes I have not found anyone, who wants to be with me. It might be true that he is standing in front of me but I am not able to recognise him. Hey guys how do you know he is the one???? So in my quest to find someone, I was thinking of guys whom I had my encounters (ya ya I got my sly smile). I have fallen in love once, but unfortunately he did not feel the same to me. As one night stands doesn’t count, few are off the list, but yes I do remember the passion of a young police officer, the dangerous encounter with a clean shaven youngster, the craving of a boy (do still have doubt if he was a call boy), a guy from underground, ok let’s leave them. Now if I take stock of “the budding love feeling” then I guess there is my take away boy, the engineer, clean shaven roommate but situations and orientations did not let the bud to bloom. Then there is one guy, from Kolkata, have become good friends. I guess he is the only person who is there in my list that can prosper to be” The One”.
One of my online friends is getting married (to a girl). Though I am not very much fond of married men, when I heard him say that his marriage is fixed was. I really felt happy for him. No I am just saying it, I really felt happy from deep inside my heart. I am not against marriage, even have picturized my marriage taking place at a beach setting, at least the reception. But the only thing is I have picturized the marriage but not my partner. May be gay marriages are not legal in India.
Then last week, one of my colleague. He has registered in a matrimonial site, and was looking at the prospects available. He is recently widowed and has got two kids. Actually I was surprised to see the response he was getting. Though he did look some profiles for me too, I did not find anyone interesting. Yes there were few beautiful dames but not my type. My type is men, and he was looking female profiles....lol. Even when I call my colleagues from previous company this question does pop up. “When is you getting married, we need to come. Try getting married during summer vacations so the whole family can come down” And I put forward the routine answer, ‘No I have not thought about marriage, let me live, and enjoy life’.
Yes I know I am going to be confronted with marriage questions, when I go for vacation.....have kept fingers crossed.
