Am I Gay Enough?

Last Sunday i had been to a friends place. I was eating his brains from Muscat for cooking me a something to eat. Ok when I said make me something to eat I just meant, I will nibble something what you have cooked for yourself, and not that make me a separate meal. On seeing him online asked him where is my meal and he was like ok ok ill cook up something for you, and he asked what do I want, and I in my mood said, I love Italian, Chinese, Roti & Dal Tadka (ofcourse I do like them), but never expected for him to do that, ok may be Dal & some Roti.
So Sunday by about 13:00 hrs I came online and saw him too so I said I am dropping by his place (ya I tend to do that) he said fine and it was good that I messaged him as he was feeling a bit lazy to cook up, now its cool
So I landed up, and the moment I entered the house I felt like wow, it was colorful and artistic to the right amount. A dash of colour here and there on the curtains, it was cool. Ok he stated cooking up after I arrived, I watched him cook dal, then I moved on to his computer watched a bit of “Emotionally” (Gay Indian Movie), absolutely hated it, I don’t think Indian gays are as portrayed in the movie, may be a small percent, what ever, then watched a bit of Queer as Folk, Latter days and then he came with the lunch…hmm (I need to name it something it was around 16:00 hrs). I was like OMG, what is this, had Chilly Paneer, Dal & Roti, and an Italian dish don’t remember the name basically pasta. And I remember him telling me that he is ok with Chinese but never tried Italian. So I asked him how did that happen , and he said, downloaded the menu, and I was like ‘Right’. He showed me the menu, I literally was dumbstruck. I have to say I did enjoy the meal, great man.

Now coming back to the house, there was nothing huge to suggest that he was gay. But yes I felt like I am entering a gay mans world…there is pink of course the beautiful pink of gay. Ok its basically red and when white light shines through its pink. I am not a very much a fan of pink. Of course its separate that that I do go through “Pink”. And some beautifully decorated lamp shades, made from recycled paper and stick. He has his bed on the floor (actually I prefer such setting) , so its like a seating area as well as his bed. And the wall plastered with wall paper just to give an effect of head board, beautifully done. And when you lie of course you have the computer at arms length, but your view is again an art work of stick and few leaves staring at you between the curtains of white and blue. Seeing all this it did made me wonder..Don’t I have any qualities of being a gay guy?
And yesterday, another friend he was talking about his shoes, how he takes care of himself and stuff, which I don’t do.
It really made me wonder what is wrong with me?. Am I not gay enough…lol. Don’t worry don’t have plans of crossing over

I am Back

Hey Guys how have you all been, doing great I presume.
Anyways I am now in India, yup have come back for my vacation. Ok when I was boarding the flight I was like I am gonna miss 2 of my newly made friends and I did not feel like leaving Muscat…imagine that me saying I did not feel like leaving Muscat….bloody absurd, when the whole time I was crying for being away from India.

The whole rush of being back to India came when I saw the green of Kerala before the flight landed, made me remember what the heck I was missing the whole long 13 months. Its awesome guys to be back.
Made few phone calls spoke to few old friends gay & straight both…….called a friend and told him that he is gonna get his ass kicked for not giving even a missed call. And do you know something, I have met 2 guys already of course one I spoke while I was in Muscat the other guy I just spoke to him the very next day I landed, met him….ya but no hanky panky if you guys are thinking naughty. And one guy is like he wants a relationship and me being mono and stuff…I am not sure I wanna do it and on top I don’t think he is gay (of course he went for my dick the moment he met me), but his ideology of he being gay did not sound gay to me, ill put him in “curious” that’s it. Its because he has never had gay sex, just some fondling with a neighbor and he is convinced he is gay…kinda stupid if you ask me…..i even told him go have gay sex and then start rethinking your sexual orientation. But as a person he is a nice (I am not sure what other word to use).
But two things which I really got me bugged up were (1) bloody traffic (2) honking. Yes I have been here for the whole of my life, but some how this time its like, pressure. I am seriously thinking of writing a note to the Mayor, asking to act for who she is, after all she was an educator for Christ sake…don’t you see the mess. I know honking is all up to every individual, may be it was like 1% honking for these months and to hear all the sound its irritating.
But what ever be it its good to be back in India.

Dance & Dance

You guys know me as a fan of movies, and now one more of me i just love dance performances, and i was watch some performances of contestants of "Dance India Dance", brilliant performances, and cool choreography.

While seeing these performances i happened to hold that idiotic, amazed, funny look, and people were looking at me as i was watching porn it in a public area. And i was wondering why are people looking at me as if i am watching porn in public. And its when a friend came and asked, what are you watching, because though it seems you are enjoying it you are too engrossed in it.

Seeing these performance can anyone complain of my look?
Check it out guys......

Evening Emotional

I was with a friend of mine; ok it’s a gay friend. Though we don’t have complete sexual relationship, as he is pure top, I am at ease when I am with him.
We had not met for like 10-15 days so we were sharing our experience of the week that had passed. And he mentioned of his fight with his bf….he made him cry and he cried too. And I was like pick up the phone and give him a call, as he was getting emotional and stuff…..but he was like no, he will be asleep and he did not want to disturb him, as he is a light sleeper..... Interestingly at the very same moment his bf came online. Don’t you think there is always a connection of the hearts when you are really in love?

Unfortunately he made me remember the good time I had spent with my guy. Made me a bit emotional. But I am not sure what emotion it is……..I don’t feel like crying, neither am I angry, but yes my throat is a bit dry. And want to be in someone’s arms, lying in the bed. Naked or clothed I don’t care but yes close to someone.